Normally I would just happily keep this part of my life to myself, but its been a big change. Lifestyle change. And I don't want to just keep it to myself any longer. This weight loss has affected all aspects of my life, including the crafting.
It started with not wanting to look fat for the family photos that I knew would be taken at the upcoming wedding. Having not been in the same country as the rest of my family in more than 10 years, the fact I was there was going to be an instantaneous shout out that required copious amounts of documentation for the grandparents. I knew this. I also knew that I was heavier than any of these people had ever seen me what with 10 years of not particularly caring what I ate and lots of time spent playing computer games.
I also had a problem. A medical one. I was, and had been, seriously low on iron for several months. This resulted in barely being able to function, much less exercise which had been my traditional weight loss route. If I didn't want to be as fat as I was in 3 months time for all those family photos, I knew that I had to find a new way.
I decided on Weight Watchers. I knew I'd never stick to meetings. I'm too busy, too self conscious, and would end up resenting them. I hear they're great, and I'm sure for some they are, but I knew they weren't for me. When I found out there was an app for that and an online only version though? Sold. Friends had had success with WW in the past and I figured how hard could it be?
I mean, don't get me wrong, once you get in the groove, its pretty easy. But training yourself to watch what you eat, to change all your favorite recipes that you've eaten all your life, to realize that yes that single piece of chocolate has consequences, and to find the will to decide you're done for the day even though your tummy is screaming it wants more? Its tough.
Its easier now, 11 months later. Its easy because its habit. And I think because I chose the right plan for me.
I'm a gamer. I like playing games. I like finding ways to beat the system. WW gives me that. I can game the system and still come out winning. And if I don't win this week, I can try again next week with a clean slate.
I'm not going to lie to you and say I was perfect all the way through. There have been several weeks, including this last one, where I not only didn't lose anything, but actually put a little on. And on those mornings when I'm standing on the scale, in my birthday suit without even glasses, I curse a little inside and sometimes out loud. But I know its just a step on the path now.
I haven't quite hit my target of shedding 50 pounds, but I know it'll happen. I only have 3 pounds to go after all, and if I can get the first 47 down, then these three will come. Eventually. But not this week. Not when I have birthday cake to eat.
It is nice, however, to know that I am the thinnest me I've ever been. When I graduated high school I was nearly 20 pounds heavier than I am now.
What does this have to do with crafting you're asking? Quite frankly, because I've become a different kind of crafter this year- a food crafter. Not every meal I make has been a beauty, or amazing, or even tastey. But I've been busy cooking when I used to craft. I have found and tried hundreds of new recipes, finding new favorites and creating new habits. I've experimented with new techniques, new ethnicities, and new technology. Researching new recipes has been bringing me as much joy as reading about new embroidery techniques.
Its been a long road, its not over yet, and maintaining may prove even harder for me than losing. But I'm here to tell you its possible. I just had to want it.